Domesticated Bliss

I saw a side of Rudy tonight that made me smile. I keep trying to tell him he will be a great dad, but he doesn't believe  me. He feels uncomfortable around babies, probably because he hasn't spent much time around them. Tonight was fun because I saw a tinny part of what he will be like when we have kids. We were baby-sitting our friends little girl again and since it was really nice out, we decided to take her to the park. It was so much fun to watch her have fun and to watch Rudy's fear if this little person dissipate. I was told she loved the slide, so when we got there, I lifted her to the top of the small slide and told Rudy to stand at the bottom to catch her, just in case. After a few times of her going down the slide and laughing, Rudy was the one lifting her to the top. Before this, I don't think he has ever willingly (without prompting from the women ini the room) picked up a child. She loved it and I think he had fun too.

I was late to work this morning... because of the cats... again. 

Its been a few weeks since I posted last. Everything is fine. No, I'm not dead... just really really busy. My sisters wedding is less than a month away and my workload is still overflowing. This past weekend had both the shower I was helping to throw, plus one for a friend of the family. This Saturday is little sis's bachelorete party, which is starting and ending here at my house. We also have a wedding to go to on Friday night. The following weekend we hope to visit Rudy's parents, the weekend after that is helping friends move. My sisters wedding is the Friday after that (May 16th) and once the wedding festivities finish up, Rudy and I have to get our stuff packed because we leave Memorial Day weekend for our two week road trip. In between all that, I have to take another floral class, finish the wedding programs and table numbers, help put together the flowers, and work my long hours while the weather is beautiful outside. I do like doing all this stuff, I just wish I had the time to enjoy it before moving on to the next thing. I was hoping to get my bathroom done before we left on vacation, but I'm not sure if that will happen now. At least once I get back from vacation, my summer should be relatively relaxing. :-) Mmmm... gotta go... Rudy's throwing steaks on the grill. I love spring!

I just finished babysitting a friends 16 month old littler girl. I had a ball. She is so sweet! I hadn't actually seen her since before Christmas and it just amazes me how much children grow when you haven't seen them in a few months. She is walking and saying words. She understands a lot of what you say to her. The last time I babysat was when she was six month old. She was a good baby back then, but she is a really good toddler now. She didn't cry when her mom walked out the door to leave. She was easily entertained. She was even really good at letting me know what she wanted, like when she was hungry, wanted to go outside to play, or needed her diaper changed.

Just got back from my OBGYN appointment. Basically we are at what feels like a stand still for another 3 months. I still haven't gotten my period after 2 months of Metformin, so we are upping the does to the maximum. I was on 500 mg 3 times per day. Now I am going up to 1000 mg twice a day. Hopefully this will bring back my period before my next appointment. The other thing she kept saying was that I have to loose weight. I know this. I'm not stupid. Its just not that easy. I am loosing, its just been very slow. 10 pounds in two months. I'm averaging about a pound a week. I am 5'7" tall. When I started on Metformin, I weighed 263 lbs. Today I weighed in at 253. Two years ago I was down to 195. My doc wants me back down to 200 before I go on the Clomid if possible. It took me a year and a half to loose 40 lbs the last time. I've got to find something that works. Maybe I'll sign up for the expensive 10 week program at the YMCA that has you work out like your on Biggest Looser. The trick is going to be getting Rudy involved. I know I can't do it on my own. The really frustrating part is that once I loose it all, then get pregnant, I'll just have to loose it all again.

It feels like spring around here. The sun is shining, the temperature is getting warmer. I've opened all the windows in the house. Its so nice to air everything out after a long winter. It is still a bit chilly, but its great weather for a lazy Saturday afternoon. I feel a little sorry for the cats though. We got them in the fall, so they are not used to the sounds of outside. Montey is running around all freaked out every time a car passes the house. The way I figure it, he will have to get over it sometime. We like to have the windows open in the summer. Eventually he will get used to the different sounds.

Ok, how difficult can it be to press the ON button for the dryer, after it has already been loaded? 

I'm so proud of myself. I feel empowered. Rudy was gone last night to a "guy's thing". I wasn't invited. Thats fine. I'm not one of those women who have to spend every waking moment with their man. Actually, thats part of why our marriage works. We enjoy time both with and without each other. We have separate interests and I think that is healthy. However, this past week was very stressful for me and by Friday at five, I needed to blow off a little steam. Normally Rudy and I would have found something to do, but I knew he wouldn't be home most of the night. Instead I called a variety of friends, but they all had other plans. I was just going to go home and read a book until I had an inspired idea. I looked up the play list at the second run theater. I got so excited. 27 dresses was showing at 6:20. I had been wanting to see it but didn't want to spend $7.50 or more when it was just a chick-flick. I had resolved myself to wait until it came out on dvd. Instead, I went, all by myself to a movie, only payed $3.50 and really enjoyed it. When it was done I felt so much better. I love chick flicks when I'm stressed. They just make me happy.

Had my appointment with the family doc this morning to go over blood test results. I really should have canceled this visit. I felt like it was a wast of time. Everything she told me was stuff I already knew. We went over my sugar, cholesterol, and blood pressure levels. All of which are high, but not high enough to be really bothersome. She talked about how getting my sugar levels under control and loosing weight will help with the cholesterol and the blood pressure. She said the the Metfomin will help with the sugar levels and possibly the weight loss (which it has already). It was decided that because I'm trying to get pregnant, I shouldn't go on any other medication. So nothing has really changed. Plus, I found it rather comical having a woman who is my size or possibly even bigger, who is also a doctor, telling me that I need to loose weight. I agree that I need to go down a few sizes, but I couldn't get that voice out my head that wanted to retort "I'll make more of an effort if you will to. How bout a wager. First one to loose 40 lbs wins". The thing that really frustrated me was when she asked how I was handling the Metformin. I told her I'm doing much better now, but I when I stared it was diarrhea for over a month. She proceeded to give me a lecture on how the intake of sugar and carbohydrates will increase the side effects of Metfomin, and that if I decrease how much I eat of those items, I should feel a lot better. I know thats true to a point, but I wasn't eating much of those at all when I started and I still had major problems with the runs. I even did a week of stage on the South Beach Diet, where I didn't eat any at all, and I still had the runs. Anyway, sorry for my little rant, but the appointment was just such a waste of time when I don't have a lot to spare.

Rudy and I officially got the time off for a long road trip to visit with his grandparents in Wyoming. We will be leaving the weekend of Memorial Day and will be gone up to two weeks. We've arranged it so our schedule will be really flexible. With how busy things are at work, I'm really looking forward to this trip and not having firm plans. It should be an adventure since I'm not good at going where the wind takes me. The idea of not knowing exactly where we are going to sleep at night or what we are going to do each day kind of freaks me out. We have a basic idea of what the trip will be. We will leave either Friday after work or sometime Saturday, depending on how good we are about packing ahead of time. If it works out, we will probably make our way to Milwaukee and stay with friends the first night. We are planning to take camping gear, so if we happen upon a campground that looks inviting, we may spend a night in the wilderness, otherwise it will probably be cheep motels. Rudy is brining his laptop with an updated navigation program and a GPS unit, so that puts me a little more at ease knowing that we can look ahead to find food, shelter, and gas stations. Along the way, we want to stop at Mount Rushmore and Walldrug. We will go through Yellowstone, the Badlands, and hopefully Bear Tooth Pass, if it is open by the time we get there. Once in Wyoming, we will be staying with Rudy's grandparents for a few days. They live near Jackson Hole and his Grandpa and Uncle work on a Ranch near there. The whole trip should be really interesting for me since I've never been out that direction.